I Found My Breast Cancer During the Pandemic—and the Trauma of a Double Mastectomy Left Me With PTSD Symptom
"When I heard the C word, I initially thought to myself, game over, " recalls Katherine Han, of the moment she was diagnosed in 2020. "Eventually, that feeling would change to game changer and wake-up call. " The water is frigid. I have fallen through the ice and am gasping for air. Am I drowning? Will I be able to find the hole in the surface of the frozen pond? I wake up in a deep sweat. Another dream, the same dream. I always wake up before I make it to the surface, so I never know if I survived. This dream is not entirely random; it actually happened when I was 10 years old. I fell through the ice of a frozen pond in the dead of winter in New Jersey. In real life, I made it to the surface and was pulled out to safety. I have been having this dream for months now ever since I was diagnosed with breast cancer in July 2020. No one can rescue me this time. I am no longer 10, but 52 years old. I will save myself. After all, I am the one who d...